Wednesday, July 21, 2010

"Unwanted Babies", Best Friends, Hips, Bachelors and Boyfriends...

Well, I found out people actually read my blog. I didn't post anything for a week and got 4 e-mails and a few comments from friends asking why I hadn't updated anything. I was surprised, but it's all about supply and demand, so here are a few highlights from my last week:
I feel like I have become an honorary member to the "mom's club" at the country club in Waco. I babysit 2 precious kids every Thursday and then randomly throughout the week. Katie is 6 and Jackson is 4 and they are the most entertaining part of my summer. We have become regulars at the country club pool and have lots of fun conversations in our many car rides like: why some girls are pregnant without being married, why I am old but don't have a baby in my tummy, how it's possible to have a baby in your tummy when you don't want it there, what to do with a baby in your tummy that you don't want, why I live with another girl at my apartment, why boys go potty standing up but girls sit down, why Kyle doesn't live with me, and my personal favorite...why do I "get" to wear a bra and Katie doesn't, even though we are both girls? These are very thought provoking questions and my simple answers usually just lead to more tough questions. They are smart kids and I am constantly fumbling over words to try and give them a good answer without too much information! We have lots of fun together. Their mom always acts excited when I say that I will come keep them, she should know by now that I will never say no.
Jackson's tiger face paint @ Kid's Day

Katie @ Kid's Day

Jackson and Katie @ the children's museum

This weekend I got to see my best friend, Rachel, for the first time all summer! She has been a camp counselor in Colorado and drove up to Waco on Saturday morning and we drove together to the lake house in New Braunfels. We spent Saturday floating the Comal River and Sunday we skied/wakeboarded on Canyon Lake. It was Rachel's first time to get up on the skis and she was a pro. We had a great time catching up. There were lots of laughs and memories made!
our grasshopper friend we found on the front porch

on our way to Gruene for dinner

Rachel on the skis

My face of determination

ZUMBA. If you don't know what I am talking about, go YouTube Zumba so you know what you are missing out on. I hate working out, I really really do, but I have recently become a Zumba addict. I go to Zumba class Monday-Thursday for an hour each day. It is by far one of the best times of my week! It is an awesome work out and so much fun. A bunch of my friends go with me and we get to shake our hips and break out some crazy dance moves all while sweating our tails off! It's true, our hips don't lie.

Bachelorette-- Chris or Roberto? I am so torn. Chris cracks me up and is so sweet. Roberto is smokin' and really genuine. I'm glad I am not making the decision, I would feel bad cutting either of them.

I get to see Kyle almost everyday on Skype. Skype changes lives, seriously. What if we had to do this the old fashion way where we just wrote letters back and forth? Romantic, maybe. Practical, heck no. Annoying, definitely. I get to see his face every single day. I am a lucky girl! We are going to have a Skype movie date soon, where we will both watch a movie on my computer, even though we are across the world. Precious, I know.

I am still working on Crazy Love, slowly, but surely.
I have had a song stuck in my head all day and I think the lyrics are so beautiful...

What do I Know of Holy by Addison Road

I made You promises a thousand times
I tried to hear from Heaven
But I talked the whole time
I think I made You too small
I never feared You at all No
If You touched my face would I know You?
Looked into my eyes could I behold You?

What do I know of You
Who spoke me into motion?
Where have I even stood
But the shore along Your ocean?
Are You fire? Are You fury?
Are You sacred? Are You beautiful?
What do I know? What do I know of Holy?

I guess I thought that I had figured You out
I knew all the stories and I learned to talk about
How You were mighty to save
Those were only empty words on a page
Then I caught a glimpse of who You might be
The slightest hint of You brought me down to my knees

What do I know of You
Who spoke me into motion?

Where have I even stood
But the shore along Your ocean?
Are You fire? Are You fury?
Are You sacred? Are You beautiful?
What do I know? What do I know of Holy?

Wednesday, July 14, 2010

Please Don't Spit Me Out...

  Death has been on my mind the past few days. Dying always seems so morbid and sad, but should it not be a celebration for Christians? I was thinking about what would happen if I died today. Who would be there? What would they say? Would anyone think about me 10, 20, 30 years later? Then, I realized something. It wouldn't matter. If I even knew all those details, I wouldn't care. I would be gone and in a new place. So then my mind wandered into that new place. I have done a lot of reading and something that always amazes me is the Bema Seat in Heaven. If I understand correctly, someone feel free to correct me if I don't, there first a throne of judgement in heaven where your salvation is determined, "do you claim Jesus as your Lord..." and so on, but then there is a judgement seat, "bema seat", for those who have been saved. It is on this seat that God examines what you have done for His kingdom during your time on Earth. Anyone scared? I am. I will be trembling knowing that I am being judged by something so great that words cannot describe Him. There is one thing I am sure of, I fear God. I've got that part down. I am still working on the love part, but I know I will never fully comprehend it. So I die, make it to Heaven, make it past the throne...or do I? In Revelations 3:15 it says  
   "I know your deeds, that you are neither cold nor hot. I wish you were either one or the       other! So, because you are lukewarm- neither cold nor hot- I am going to spit you out of      my mouth."
  Um hello, it's life examination time. Am I lukewarm? I would like to think I am not, but there are places where I can definitely say that I am. That is scary.
  I am currently reading Crazy Love by Francis Chan. In the book, he gives a great example of lukewarm. He talks about wanting to join the Marines, the commercials are just so catchy.."the few, the proud, the Marines." (That's good PR folk making that happen!) But in every commercial the Marines are running..and running..and running. I hate running. Francis Chan hates running too. Would we ask the Marine's if they would lighten the running and give us an alternative work out plan so we can be more comfortable? Of course not! They would spit us out too! In the same manner, God says "Take up your cross and follow me." We would be foolish to ask for an easier path, more comfortable shoes, or a lighter cross. I can imagine the conversation between Jesus and I... 
"Hey Jesus, can we slow down a bit? I'm about to pass out from all this hiking." 
"Haha you fool, your years on Earth are numbered. You better start sprinting."
"Oh gosh, I think the Marines would have been easier."
                                                  Guatemala-June 2010

Sunday, July 11, 2010

I'm Not Quite Sure...

   Well I am not sure about a lot of things, including the purpose of this blog.
   I spend so much time looking at everyone else's life online that I should probably spend the time jotting down my own. I am not sure anyone will read this, but that's ok. It's a way for family and friends to see what I have been up to and a way for me to keep track of my life.
   As of now, I am in the summer before my senior year of college. It is supposed to be exciting. After all, I love Baylor and this has become my home. But I have come to the harsh reality that I will soon be kicked out of school and on my own in the real world. Unless I can find my way to graduate school, which is a strong possibility. I am a journalism major right now, and would like to continue that path, focusing on public relations. I will be taking the GRE (the graduate school entrance exam) on August 6, but have not cracked open a book to study. Instead, I have spent every waking moment with friends and my computer. The biggest problem is that there haven't been many waking moments! I tend to sleep in quite a bit during the summer months. 
Kyle and me

lake with Hannah and Emily

the fam going to see Wicked

   My sister, Megan, came into town today to hang out with me for the next few days. We went to lunch after church then decided to come home and take a nap. It is 6 p.m. and she is still asleep. I got to exchange a few e-mails with my sweet boyfriend, Kyle, today too. He is in Europe studying abroad until August 10, but his train broke down today and so he was given free WiFi during the wait. Hearing from him always makes my day, even if it did interrupt my nap! 
   Classic lesson learned today: For the past week I have been getting really bad allergies when I am in my bed. Weird, right? Today they were so bad I had to go downstairs so I could breathe. Finally, I noticed a Ziploc bag on the shelf of my nightstand that I had put there about a week ago. Kyle bought me Gerber dasies, my favorite flowers, for my birthday and I had put them in a bag to try and keep them for scrapbooking. I guess they weren't dry or something because the bag was wet and covered with mold. I threw them in the trash outside and wahlah! I can breathe again! The life of a college kid... you should hear all the mold stories I have...
   My stories are endless. I will be writing many of them on here, mostly for my own entertainment, but I hope if you get stuck reading this that you will enjoy them also.